Hujan pasti berhenti

"Hujan itu selalu anugrah,baik itu gerimis, lebat bahkan badai sekalipun, kita masih bisa gunakan payung, jika tidak ada payung kita bisa gunakan jas hujan, jika terlalu basah, kita bisa berteduh dahulu.

..karena tidak ada hujan yang tidak berhenti".

( Sihite, 2012)

Pesan seorang polisi yang (mungkin) juga mewakili rekan polisi lainnya.

"Kalau kami boleh demo, kami lebih depan dari anda, hai mahasiswa. Kalau kami boleh bicara, kami akan bicara lebih lantang dari anda, wahai mahasiswa. Andai anda tidak anarkis, maka kami tak akan berdiri tegap, tapi justru berangkulan dengan anda. Apakah kalian tidak paham bahwa kami juga merasakan pahitnya bila harga melambung tinggi? Apakah anda pikir keluarga kami makan peluru? Stop anarkis, akan kami kawal aksi damai dan aspirasi anda…"

(Reza Indragiri, Jawapos)
(Dari status FB Cahya FN)
(Source: wznipradana, via renirahmahidayani)

We (don't) need marry someone with different faith

Why does it take me so long for a simple yes or no question?

It’s not because I think that you are not qualified enough to be my partner in life.

God knows how tempting you are to me. 

It’s me. I am a very weak and selfish person.

I am incapable of loving anyone, even you, forever and ever till death do us apart. My love will definitely fade away some day.

That’s why we need a speel "T" in our "cinta". it refers to Tuhan. 

God s the only one who could strengthen me to stand by him through his weaknesses, entertain me through my incidental boredom of relationship, and comfort me not to take broke as an option no matter how hard it gets.

And I don’t believe your love, or any love will last.

I need a man who loves God more than he loves me. 

Otherwise, he will just leave this stupid weak girl eventually.

And so do we.

Ok. I know you love God too, just in a different way. You think it is ridiculous that we cannot be together. But you happen to love singing in the church, and the idea of a God that is more like a father, and you need a partner who see Him as a father too.

The different lifestyle makes me uncomfortable. I need a guy who I can pray with every early morning. 

I need a guy who refers to the “same book” for our problems. Because no matter how hard I try to tell myself that we are the same, we are not.

Despite of no, I do believe that God creates us differently for a beautiful reason, not to make myself feel better than others. 

And I am very grateful that God let me get to know you. 

If you can see through my eyes, you will see how blessed I feel just to spend an afternoon of absolutely nothing with you.

Thank you. I love you. I always will.

Someone Like You

Adele got her heart broken, made an album, got herself fame fortune and grammies, leave lady gaga and katy perry with empty handed.

us? we got our heart broken, made no album, won no grammies, and left empty handed listening to katy perry.

in another life, i will be your girl. but not in this lifetime.

so in the meantime waiting for that next lifetime, should we sit around and weep?

we are so much better than this. we are born and raised in a generation value glory more than love.

do i love my work more than my muse?

I want to love with no fear attached.

I am not looking for someone like you and not wish nothing but the best for you. No more pop singers will tell me what to do.

and no more revolution from my bed.

i will stand on my feet, listen to the breeze, follow my path, and keep you always in my heart.

if you mind, too bad. I love you* that way.

See you in the fields of gold.



*tanpa syarat dan ketentuan berlaku

Too

Apakah kehidupanmu hancur?
Ada yang memulihkan kehidupan.
#iklan

Too much book.

Too much movie.

Too much religion.

Too much voice.

Too much song.

Too much people telling me how I feel, somehow it is hard to know what I really feel. Even harder to explain it in words.

I need the silence where I can hear your voice. The voice that never tells me what to do.

The voice that never tells me how to love how to act and how to be anything.

The voice that brings a smile to my face and brighten the skin without mercury.

The voice that makes every pain in heart worth having.

So what do you have to tell me today other than I love you?

And you keep silent cause there is no words needed.

Just feel the rain on your skin.

Love, Expired

I believe in love. It just doesn't last.
"Cuma 4 tahun. 5 tahunlah kalau dikuat2in."

"Makanya kita menikah. Biar ketika cinta sudah pudar, ada komitmen yang mengikat kita."

"Cinta itu gak pudar, cuma berubah bentuk menjadi sesuatu yang lebih tenang, lebih nyaman..."

"Lebih membosankan. Gue bertahan ya gak mau nyakitin dia aja."

"The best way to survive life and live it to the fullest is to swap partners every 4 to 5 years."

"I love you too much. I want us to be friends. Kalau kita pacaran, paling 4 tahun lagi kita bosen dan akhirnya musuhan."
"I'd rather be your enemy than be your best fucking friend. So please give me my 4 years, then I would be the happiest enemy you have."

"I love you too much. I don't wanna lose my friend."

"I can't promise you forever but I know I can love you for 4 years."

"What if after 4 years and we're still in love?"

"Then I am open for another 4 years. But the interest rate will be different, honey."

"I'll try hard to be able to afford you for the next 4 years."

"Try hard. Love is not for granted."

"Love is not for pussy. Only the brave one can stay in love ever after."

"I would love to be the producer. i wish it was like a film, can we remake it?"

"No. I'm not in love with her anymore. Our 4 years was up. about love, expired."

Love, expired.

So before it's gone, I will put it into the big screen.

"Would you be my wife for 3 years and 9 months?"

Somehow it's enough

jadi mau sampai kapan lo mau kaya gini?

sampai lo tua and gak laku-laku? waktu gak bakal nunggu lo, sayang. Banyak yang lain yang dengan senang hati jadi lo.

Lo gak bosen ya nyanyi lagu mendayu-dayu? Minjem lirik orang buat bilang sayang? Bahkan lo gak bikin lirik lo sendiri. Katanya mau jadi penulis?

Lo gak capek mengeluh? Berasa masalah lo paling berat sedunia? Lo tau buruh2 demo di jalan tol buat apa? dua ratus ribu , neng.

Katanya lo orang pintar dengan otak bersinar. mana? mana? emang cuma butuh semangat, bukan pintar.

ini saatnya perang, biar setan dibungkam.

hari ini, bahagialah dengan jatah yang udah diberikan buat lo. paling besok semua kiamat. gak ada yang peduli lo mau jadi apa.

tenang. gak usah ngotot. lo ga akan menang juga. ujung-ujungnya semua debu.

but you know what?

Somehow it's enough.

Back Home

i'm back.

broken yet stronger.
defeated yet grateful.

how do you walk when you feel unworthy?

it's not about you, honey.

what?

it's not about you. so stand up and cut the nonsense. you have a road to finish.

but it is about me. who would ever want to see me?

it's not you. it's themselves they will see.

still i feel unworthy.

you are.

then why would they see ?

because it's not about you. it's about us. our fear. our love. our loss. our dream.

I still feel unworthy. I'm broken.

but you are still alive, with your hand and feet. now stand up and type.

what should i type?

anything but this unworthy shit.

promise me it won't be about me?

it's not about you.

i love you.

yeah yeah yeah.... now shut up and type. no drama for february. we have a lot of things to do.

i love you.

*sigh... i love you more.

Kuat

Hari ini gue memutuskan, gue kuat.

Gak akan lagi gue lemah. Gak mau lagi gue disetir orang.
Gak lo.
Gak dia.
Gak juga devil.


Gak gue banget sih lemah-lemah.

Gak usah doain gue. Ntar gue yang doain kalian biar kalian semua tenang. Gak usah panik. Gak akan lagi gue jatuh.

Gak kan gue bawa-bawa Tuhan. Terlalu sering Dia jadi pembenaran penakut-penakut buat gak berani bertanggung jawab atas kesalahan sendiri.

Gak usah bawa-bawa devil. Terlalu sering doi disalahkan atas kelakuan gue.

Gue yang devil.

Gak akan gue minta maaf. Gue emang devil, tapi lo juga. Jadi sesama devil gak usah saling menyalahkan.
 

Makasih atas nasehat ke gue. tapi gue ngerasa lo terlalu baik buat rela ngurusin masalah anak kecil kaya gue.

You have bigger purposes than me. Don't make me your excuses.

Hari ini gue mau kuat.

Hari ini gue kuat.

Mama's Pray

ketika ayat-ayat cuma bikin muak
nasehat buat tambah berontak
kata-kata yang dipanjatkan diam-diam
menyatakan kuasanya

dalam hening
si bebal terisak minta ampun
dalam hening
dia kembali bahagia

I need more of your silent prayer
to keep this love beautiful

I love you, mama.